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(okay fine, you can read it)

i fell for
my bestie 😭

a little diary.
read it before i lose my nerve 🫠

↓ scroll if u dare ↓

🙈 🤡

disclaimer ~

this is not a confession.

it's a crisis report 🚨
filed by yours truly.

↳ status: hopelessly cooked

log entry №247 ~

day two-hundred-forty-seven
of pretending i'm fine 🙃

247

i thought it'd be a phase.
it's been a whole season. 🍂

🩺

exhibit A ~

how i knew i was cooked 💀

receipts. all of them. 🧾

saved every dumb meme u sent guilty
read your texts twice. then thrice. 📱
my fav song is now "our" song 🎧 unrecoverable
laugh too hard at your unfunny jokes 😭
get jealous when u talk about them 🫠
brain replays our convos at 2am every. night.
started caring how my hair looks lol 💁
typed "i like u" then deleted it. 17 times ✍️ coward era
planned our whole future in my head 🏠
smiled at my phone like an idiot 😁 caught. again.

↳ i'm a whole mess and you did this 😤

exhibit B ~

our dumb little moments 🥹

a tiny crime scene of how i got here ↓

— first ever selfie 📸

— the 3am laughs 🌙

— our dumb walks 🚶

— stolen fries era 🍟

— random adventures ✨

— that one bus ride 🚌

— matching fits day 🧢

— snack run chaos 🍫

every photo. every laugh.
i was falling and didn't even notice 🫠

🌧️ ⚡

the moment ~

it hit me on a tuesday 📅

you were just...
eating noodles. that's it.
that was the crime scene. 🍜

i looked at you and went
"oh. oh no."

↳ never recovered btw

but wait ~

the "should i tell" debate 🗯️

pls don't judge my brain. it's tired.

say it 🌷

maybe u feel it too 🥹
cute holiday photos 📸
imagine the matching pjs 🥺
life would slap fr fr
the hand-holding agenda 🫶
we already act married lol 💍
someone to steal hoodies from 🧥

don't say it 😬

what if u just laugh 💀
what if it gets weird 😖
what if i lose my person 🥲
what if. what if. what if.
the group chat would never survive 💬
my ego cannot take a no 🫥
what if tuesday fries get weird 🍟

the cons make sense.
but the pros have your face in them. 🥹

final entry ~

okay fine. here:

tap the envelope.
i can't say it out loud 🥹

FROM ME • TO U

💗

to: my favorite person
RE: this is bad

↑ tap to rip it open ↑

— hi it's me —

i don't want a "best friend".
i want you. 🥹

not the version i imagine at 2am.
not the version where we play it safe.
just... you. the real one.

if it scares u, i get it.
if it makes u laugh, also fair. 😭
if u feel it too... tell me. pretty pls.

worst case: we still get fries on tuesday. 🍟
best case: my whole life. 🌷

and if the answer is no,
i'll pretend this page never existed. 😌
deal?

take your time. i've waited this long —
what's a few more days. 🙃

— urs (always was tbh) 💌

P.S. — IF YOU READ THIS FAR

yeah... it's you. 🌸
it was always you.

no pressure. no take backs either.
i just had to write it down somewhere. 💌

— end of diary entry —

(will probably write another one tomorrow tbh) 🫠

i fell formy bestie 😭