things i never said 💌

✦ draft №01 ✦

the texts i typed
and never sent 📵

literally typed. read it 14 times. then deleted it.
classic me behavior fr.

you 🌸 · typing... (lol no.)

— tuesday, 11:47 pm —

hey wyd?

i was literally just thinking abt u tbh

nm just stuff 😂

— wednesday, 2:13 am —

cant sleep, brain is doing The Thing again

the thing being. you. i am the brain. the brain is me. ok bye

gn :)

— thursday, 4:44 pm —

u went quiet lol, u good?

define good. i have rewritten this text 9 times

yeah all good 👍

— thursday, 11:11 pm —

made a wish at 11:11. it was u. it's always u

ok that was so cheesy even for me. deleting.

hope ur week goes well!! :)

— friday, 9:02 pm —

ok so i practiced this in the mirror three times so dont laugh—

i just wanted to say ➤

"draft" should literally be my middle name at this point.
the typed-then-deleted graveyard 🪦

✦ draft №02 ✦

moments i almost
spilled the tea 🫣

here are some photos of times i nearly said it.
spoiler: i did not say it 🫠

— that little walk by the lights —

"you laughed at my bad joke and i forgot how to walk straight 😭"

— coffee, but mostly staring —

"i was Not listening at all. your eyes are insane btw."

— "we're just friends" lmao —

"our hands touched for 0.4 seconds and i blacked out."

— the late late drive —

"you fell asleep mid-sentence. i did not breathe for 12 mins."

— that one rainy tuesday —

"tried to say it. said 'kk' instead. iconic."

— the goodnight that wasn't —

"you said 'sweet dreams' & i re-read it 47 times. like a clown 🤡"

— the study sesh that wasn't —

"we studied for 0 minutes. i memorized your face instead."

— you, mid golden hour —

"the sun did a thing. you did a way worse thing. to my heart."

— literally any random thursday —

"you said my name and i forgot my own. help."

✦ draft №03 ✦

the voice memo
i recorded at 2am 🎙️

said it out loud. into my phone. like a weirdo.
never sent it. of course.

⚠️ unsent

🎤 voice note 0:00

"ok so… it's late, i'm not gonna remember saying this in the morning, but —" *record stops*
a whole entire mess. about you. obvi.

✦ draft №04 ✦

the letter i wrote
and never gave you 💌

yes i used pen and paper. yes i'm aware that's dramatic.
no i don't want to talk about it.

do not
open ✦

hi (it's me. obviously.)

i don't really know how to say this without how to start this. so i'm just gonna talk like u can hear me even tho u can't.

i think i might be in lo—
ok so the thing is i kinda
ok let me try again 🙃

you make even boring tuesdays feel like a soft little event. like nothing happened, but also somehow everything did. is that crazy. probably.

also i lied when i said i wasn't watching you laugh that one time. i was 100% watching. i was 1000% watching. like a creep but in a sweet way?? hopefully??

anyway — u don't have to do anything with this letter. i just had to say it somewhere even if it's just on this lined paper in my drawer.

ps — your laugh is my favorite sound. i will not be elaborating further.

delete this delete this delete th—
no. keeping it. growth. 🌱

if you're reading this, it means i finally got brave. be nice to me. 🙈

yours, kinda always,
— me 🌸

✏️

✦ ok fine. for real this time. ✦

here goes
· nothing ·

no more drafts. no more pretending the typing dots were "nothing."
actually saying it now. 😤

every dumb song reminds me of you. every one.

i kept the screenshots. · all of them.

i told my mom about you. that's huge actually.

your name still does a tiny thing to my chest.

i saved every voice note. even the boring ones.

my camera roll is 90% you. · the other 10% is blurry you.

i practiced saying hi to you. in the mirror. twice.

you're my favorite · person · on earth.

there. said it. finally. no take-backs.
(please don't make this weird okay 🥺)

📤 outbox · 1 ready

tap once.
and it's finally sent. 💗

no more drafts folder. promise.

to: you 🌸 everything from the last 5 sections. send it?

✓ sent · finally · 💌

things i never said to you 🫣

the texts i typedand never sent 📵

moments i almostspilled the tea 🫣

the voice memoi recorded at 2am 🎙️

the letter i wroteand never gave you 💌