🤍 i am sorry ~

✦ 01 · the honest part ✦

here's exactly what i did

no softer words for it. no spinning it. u deserve to hear me say it plainly first.

— the part i can't take back —

i said something i should’ve have, i didnt think it trough. it was just a talking stage going on at that time and ive completely changed as a person now. im not sayinng i havent done any mistakes now. i believe that you’ve always been the most prettiest person ever. im a very bad person but i will change myself and everything about me.

no "but" no "u also" no "i didn't mean it"

i was wrong. fully. that's the whole sentence ~

✦ 02 · your side of it ✦

i think it felt like this

the things u typed out and deleted. i've been imagining them all week.

u, probably 🤍

drafts u never sent

i wasn't even asking for much. i just wanted u to hear me.

the silence hurt more than the actual fight did.

i kept checking my phone. that's the embarrassing part.

i'm not even angry anymore. i'm just tired.

i heard all of it. even the ones u never sent. 🤍

i'm not guessing to look sweet ~ i'm guessing because i finally sat down and thought about u instead of me.

✦ not just words ✦

what actually changes

tap each one to hold me to it. sorry without this part is just noise ~

no more crossing boundaries or joking about whats not right

no more hiding and lying

no more making you feel bad

i'll bring it up first next time. u won't have to be the one who always starts the hard talk.

and if i slip ~ u can point at this exact page and i'll shut up and fix it.

no bringing up old fights to win a new one. that stops today.

phone down when u're talking. actually down, not face-down-but-still-checking.

i'll ask how u're doing about it a week later too, not just on the day i apologise.

0 ticked ~ take ur time, read them properly first

✦ 04 · the weather between us ✦

help me clear it ☁️

i can't move this one on my own. push the cloud ~ three times should do it.

☀️

☁️

👆 tap the cloud

it's been grey like this for days. i know i'm the reason.

✦ what i'm asking for ✦

this. this is the us i want back

this one lives on my lockscreen 🤍

i'm not asking u to pretend all this didn't happen like i'm asking for a shot at getting us back here, slowly, properly.

✦ the long version ✦

p.s. the whole thing

since i had u all the way down here ~

hey mera babyy

baby im so sorry and i just wanna let yk that i love you sooo much and i know youre like verrryyy mad at me and ive hurt to the threshold point ab tohh ki matlab isse jada kuch aur and i know you’ll breakup with me. and i feel so bad so guilty and i hate hate hate seeing you like this. i really just wish i could just comfort you and hug you and keep you in my arms forever and tell you to come to me if the world isnt treating you right but i haate it that its acutally me whos not treating you right and that last person you wanna talk to rn is mee.

ab all i can do is apologise and tell you ki i love you and please dont leave me. i think you’re the most prettiest human ever and ik i shouldnt say this because you wont believe mee but i love every version of youu if its young or even eighty years old. i love you so much baby i really hope things become right. even if they dont i hope whatever decision you take, you never regret it and stay happyyy forever.

— a girl you used to love✦