☁️ 🌧️ 💧 ☁️ 🤍 💧
a very sorry little one

i am really so sorry

— Mere Shadaaannuuuu—

i'm not good at saying this out loud. so i built u somewhere quiet to hear it ~ take ur time with it. 🤍

it gets warmer further down ↓
✦ 01 · the honest part ✦

here's exactly what i did

no softer words for it. no spinning it. u deserve to hear me say it plainly first.

— the part i can't take back —

I was watching reels when you are wait for me to talk... But I seriously thought that you were also having breakfast with ur family...

Even though I was watching reels... I was sending the relatable one to you only... Becoz you are the ONE... MY ONlYY ONEEE... BE IT telegram or Instagram or any gram.... It will always be you 😭✨

The reason why I delete Instagram last tym was this only.... But again I installed it at jus jumping to click our pics...But now...again I haved uninstalled it coz... Jo mere jaaaan ko takleef de.. Woh jaae bhaad m 😎😎 Mera jaaan.. Mera only pyaarrr

no "but" no "never" no "i didn't mean it"

i was wrong. fully. that's the whole sentence ~

✦ 02 · your side of it ✦

i think it felt like this

the things u typed out and deleted. i've been imagining them all week.

you

u, probably 🤍

drafts u never sent

i wasn't even asking for much. i just wanted u to hear me.
I missed you and wanted to talked to you but you were busy watching reels
Do you feel boring with me ?
i'm not even angry anymore. i'm just tired.
i heard all of it. even the ones u never sent. 🤍

i'm not guessing to look sweet ~ i'm guessing because i finally sat down and thought about u instead of me.

✦ 03 · not just words ✦

what actually changes

tap each one to hold me to it. sorry without this part is just noise ~

no more walking away mid-conversation.

when u tell me something hurt, I ll lovee you 10000000000000000 times more than I do

no more watching reels

I never make you feel sad

I ll never make you feel low

0 ticked ~ take ur time, read them properly first

✦ 04 · the weather between us ✦

help me clear it ☁️

i can't move this one on my own. push the cloud ~ three times should do it.

☀️
☁️

👆 tap the cloud

it's been grey like this for days. i know i'm the reason.

✦ 05 · what i'm asking for ✦

this. this is the us i want back

i went looking through our photos last night. watch the colour come back into them ~

us, before all this

Us with nagin face ☠️

an ordinary good day

A bite I took that caused depression on ur cheeks

the easy version of us

Our original roop ✦

the quiet ones

Ussssssss 🤍

✨This is is US now and for the rest of our lives ✨inshallah

✦ 06 · the long version ✦

p.s. the whole thing

since i had u all the way down here ~

me, writing this

hey my 🤍,

i've been doing this frequently... But believe me it was not intentional

I won't repeat it again mere jaaaaaaaaannnnn

here's the thing i actually want u to know:

i'm not sorry because u're upset with me. i'd be sorry even if u'd forgiven me on the spot.

i'm sorry because i made the safest person in my life feel unsafe for a bit. and that's not a small thing to me.

u don't owe me a reply today. or tomorrow. u don't owe me a "it's okay" just to make the air normal again.

take however long u need ~ i'll be right here, being better in the meantime, not just promising it.

and when u're ready, i'd really love to hug u about it.

i am sorry. i love u. both of those are true at once.

— me, still yours ✦

(this page stays up. so does the promise.)