page one ✿

the letter I should've sent first

I love u

♥

Hey Angelita,

I've been thinking about this a lot, and I just want to say it properly — I'm really, really sorry.

I was wrong. I know I hurt you, and I shouldn't have. I let my mood get the better of me, and you didn't deserve any of it.

If I could go back to that moment, I'd handle it differently. I'd listen instead of argue. I'd be patient instead of stubborn. I'd choose you over being right.

I really do care about you, and I want to be better — not just today, but every day after this too.

I'm not asking you to pretend it didn't happen. I just want a chance to show you the better version of me.

However long you need, I'll be right here — no pressure, no rushing, just waiting for you.

Erse lo mas importante para mi

— Your Stupid Nizar

found these in my memory drawer ✦

look at us, look at us

A small gallery of the version of us I'm trying to stay close to.

اخر طشه النا

لما علمتيلي سناني

اخر طشه سوا

stargazing on the rooftop

birthday number ??? — best one

the spring walk where you laughed at me

the day we got completely lost

that one very silly evening

look at how nice this is. i'd really love to keep adding photos. 🥺

a list of things i'm not just saying ✿

tiny promises, written in pencil

Pencil because I might mess up — but I'll keep coming back to fix the lines.

I'll listen with both ears (and zero rebuttals)

You talk first. I'll save my "but actually" for never, or at least until tomorrow. Your feelings get the floor.

I'll come back to soft, faster

If I get prickly, I'll set a tiny mental timer and come find you with kinder eyes — same day, every time.

I'll choose "us" louder than I choose "right"

Being right is a tiny prize. Being us is a whole life. I know which one I want to keep.

I'll text back like you matter

Because you do. No more leaving you on read while I "think about my response" for six hours.

I'll bring snacks to the hard talks

Literally. A cookie, a tea, a tiny bowl of strawberries. Hard conversations deserve gentle catering.

I'll say sorry before you have to ask

No waiting for the mood to pass. If I get it wrong, you'll hear it from me first.

I'll remember the small things

The order you like, the day you're dreading, the song you had on repeat. All of it stays with me.

I'll keep showing up

Not just for the sweet days. For the boring ones and the heavy ones too.

💕 💗

are you still mad? 😭

go on, hit me — i deserve it 🥺

Slap, smack, punch, tap — whatever helps. The bunny is bracing itself with both ears down. Let it all out, and we'll talk about forgiveness after. 🥲

hits taken: 0

go on, the bunny is ready 🥲

go on, the bunny is ready 🥲 ouch! that one stung 😖 okay okay, you're really mad 😢 the bunny is sniffling 🥺💧 tiny tear puddle forming 😭 ears are weeping now 😿 okay maybe... that's enough? 🤕 apologizing through the tears 💔 you've earned every single hit 🥲 okay okay, the bunny gets it. friends? 🥺💕 i have officially learned my lesson 🫠 truce? pretty please? 🤍

🌸 🌷 🌺 ❀ ✦ ✧

the big ask ✿

Forgive me?

Pretty please, with sprinkles, with sparkles, with one (1) very sorry bunny on top, with a side of warm bread and a sky full of slightly-embarrassed stars?

i'll wait as long as you need. ✿

(the no button has anxiety. don't take it personally.)

phew ✿

knew it 😎

thanks bestie 💕

just between us though...

i actually did nothing wrong anyway 💅✨

(don't tell anyone i said that 🤫)

Lo seinto
Sin ti no soy nada

the letter I should've sent first

look at us, look at us