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i am really so sorry

— yes u, sweetheart —

i'm not good at saying this out loud. so i built u somewhere quiet to hear it ~ take ur time with it

it gets warmer further down ↓

✦ 01 · the honest part ✦

here's exactly what i did

no softer words for it. no spinning it. u deserve to hear me say it plainly first.

— the part i can't take back —

I’d never knowingly do something that I knew would hurt you.

But then i js kept on asking you questions instead of figuring it outthat was the worse part.

i'm not going to tell u i was tired, or stressed, or busynone of that is the point right now.

no "but" no "u also" no "i didn't mean it"

i was wrong. fully. that's the whole sentence ~

✦ 02 · your side of it ✦

i think it felt like this

the things u typed out and deleted. i've been imagining them all week.

drafts u never sent

i wasn't even asking for much. i just wanted to feel little more important to you

You not knowing even after hearting the reel actually hurt me more

i kept checking my phone. Even on call you were silent

i'm not even angry anymore. i'm just tired

i heard all of it. even the ones u never sent

i'm not guessing to look sweet ~ i'm guessing because i finally realised it all

✦ 03 · not just words ✦

what actually changes

tap each one to hold me to it. sorry without this part is just noise ~

No more taking things lightly when I know they matter to you. I’ll listen better, understand better

even when i’m explaining myself, i’ll make sure you know i understand why you’re hurt first

i’ll stop just asking what’s wrong and actually try to understand what you’re feeling

i'll bring it up first next time. u won't have to be the one who always starts the hard talk

and if i slip. , u can point at this exact page and i'll shut up and fix it

No more forgetting things, because you matter to me

i’ll pay more attention, so you don’t always have to explain what matters to you

i’ll remember what matters to you, not just after i’ve hurt you, but every day after too

0 ticked ~ take ur time, read them properly first

✦ 04 · the weather between us ✦

help me clear it ☁️

i can't move this one on my own. push the cloud ~ three times should do it.

☀️

☁️

👆 tap the cloud

it's been grey like this for hours. i know i'm the reason.

✦ 05 · what i'm asking for ✦

this. this is the us i want back

i went looking through your photos, watched the colour come back into them ~

Slap me but don’t get hurt

nothing special. that's the point

You mean so much to me

I think of you all day

i’m not asking you to pretend you’re okay. take your time, i’ll be here

✦ 06 · the long version ✦

p.s. the whole thing

since i had u all the way down here ~

hey sweetheart

i've been carrying this around since it happened

not in some big dramatic way, just quietly wishing i had understood sooner and done things differently

here's the thing i actually want u to know:

i'm not sorry because u're upset with me. i'd be sorry even if u'd forgiven me on the spot

i’m sorry for making you feel like you mattered any less to me, even for a moment. you mean so much more than that

u don't owe me a reply today. or tomorrow. u don't owe me a "it's okay" just to make the air normal again

take all the time you need. i’ll be here, and i’ll show you i mean it instead of just saying it

and when u're ready, i'd really love to hug u about it and kiss your whole face

i am sorry. i love u. both of those are true at once

— me, still yours ✦

(this page stays up. so does the promise.)