i am really so sorry
i'm not good at saying this out loud. so i built u somewhere quiet to hear it ~ take ur time with it. 🤍
here's exactly what i did
no softer words for it. no spinning it. u deserve to hear me say it plainly first.
— the part i can't take back —
i did something i knew would hurt u, and i said it anyway because i wanted to win the argument more than i wanted u to feel okay,shi m babu nhi hoga abse
then i went quiet for two minutes and let u sit in it alone.that was the worse part.
BABU YLL KASAM SE VAISA NHI H JAISA AAP SOCHRE
i was wrong. fully. that's the whole sentence ~
i think it felt like this
the things u typed out and deleted. i've been imagining them all week.
u, probably 🤍
drafts u never sent
i'm not guessing to look sweet ~ i'm guessing because i finally sat down and thought about u instead of me.
what actually changes
tap each one to hold me to it. sorry without this part is just noise ~
AAPNE MUJHE MAAF KIA 🥺
when u tell me something hurt, mujhe smjh jana chaie tha
no more silence yll abse dekho kuch nhi hoga
i'll bring it up first next time. u won't have to be the one who always starts the hard talk.
and if i slip ~ u can point at this exact page and i'll shut up and fix it.
help me clear it ☁️
i can't move this one on my own. push the cloud ~ three times should do it.
👆 tap the cloud
aisi aap meri life ko acchi kr dete ho 🥺
this. this is the us i want back
i went looking through our photos last night. watch the colour come back into them ~
u laughing at something i said 🥹
nothing special. that's the point.
when talking to me was easy ✦
this one lives on my lockscreen 🤍
i'm not asking u to pretend this didn't happen ~ i'm asking for a shot at getting us back here, slowly, properly.
p.s. the whole thing
since i had u all the way down here ~
hey u(mera kuchupuchu) 🤍,
i've been carrying this around since it happened.
not in the dramatic way ~ in the quiet way, where i keep replaying the exact second i could've chosen better and didn't.
here's the thing i actually want u to know:
i'm not sorry because u're upset with me. i'd be sorry even if u'd forgiven me on the spot.
Mahiii, I’m genuinely sorry yaar. Jo bhi hua, I know it was wrong from my side and I really didn’t mean to hurt you or make you feel bad. I’ve thought about it properly and I realise ki mujhe aisa nahi karna chahiye tha. I know just saying sorry won’t change what happened, but I really mean it. I promise abse I’ll be more careful and aisa dobara nahi hoga. I don’t want my stupid mistakes to affect our bond or make you feel that I don’t care. You mean a lot to me and I really value you. Bas please iss baar maaf kar de. I’ll genuinely make sure ki tujhe same reason se kabhi sorry na bolna pade again. ❤️
— me, still yours ✦
(this page stays up. so does the promise.)