🤍 i am sorry ~

✦ 01 · the honest part ✦

here's exactly what i did

no softer words for it. no spinning it. u deserve to hear me say it plainly first.

— the part i can't take back —

Lavishka I m sorry what I did was extremely wrong ik u were also tired aap bhi jaage the but woh nahi bolna chahiye thaa Ik I m sorry my lovee

Seeing u like this upset n not talking to me is the worst part I m sorry I did this to not for the first time but multiple times I m sorry sweetheart I lovee youu genuinely

I lovee youu naa I will do everything for u my babygirl don't get upset I m sorry I will become the best for u be the one right I m soo sorry

no "but" no "u also" no "i didn't mean it"

i was wrong. fully. that's the whole sentence ~

✦ 02 · your side of it ✦

i think it felt like this

the things u typed out and deleted. i've been imagining them all week.

u, probably 🤍

drafts u never sent

i wasn't even asking for much. i just wanted u to hear me.

the silence hurt more than the actual fight did.

i kept checking my phone. that's the embarrassing part.

i'm not even angry anymore. i'm just tired.

i heard all of it. even the ones u never sent. 🤍

i'm not guessing to look sweet ~ i'm guessing because i finally sat down and thought about u instead of me.

✦ 03 · not just words ✦

what actually changes

tap each one to hold me to it n what u actually expect me to do n m I doing it n does it actually make u happy?

no more walking away mid-conversation. i'll say "i need a minute" out loud instead.

when u tell me something hurt, I will listen to u n not walk away

no more 2-day silences. worst case i text u "i'm still upset but i'm here."

i'll bring it up first next time I will do whatever is said n surprise u by certain things

and if i slip ~ u can point at this exact page and i'll shut up and fix it.

no bringing up old fights to win a new one. that stops today.

phone down when u're talking. actually down, not face-down-but-still-checking.

no more waiting for a longtime going on breaks if u want space I will give u but not a proper break

0 ticked ~ take ur time, read them properly first

✦ 04 · the weather between us ✦

help me clear it ☁️

i can't move this one on my own. push the cloud ~ three times should do it.

☀️

☁️

👆 tap the cloud

it's been grey like this for days. i know i'm the reason.

✦ 05 · what i'm asking for ✦

this. this is the us i want back

i went looking through our photos last night. watch the colour come back into them ~

See u laughing this way🥰

Us hanging out

Celebrating anniversaries

Js being there for each other

i'm not asking u to pretend this didn't happen ~ i'm asking for a shot at getting us back here, slowly, properly because it's been happening since 1-2 weeks

✦ 06 · the long version ✦

p.s. the whole thing

since i had u all the way down here ~

hey u 🤍,

i've been carrying this around since it happened.

not in the dramatic way ~ in the quiet way, where i keep replaying the exact second i could've chosen better and didn't.

here's the thing i actually want u to know:

i'm not sorry because u're upset with me. i'd be sorry even if u'd forgiven me on the spot.

i'm sorry because i made the safest person in my life feel unsafe for a bit. and that's not a small thing to me.

u don't owe me a reply today. or tomorrow. u don't owe me a "it's okay" just to make the air normal again.

take however long u need ~ i'll be right here, being better in the meantime, not just promising it.

and when u're ready, i'd really love to hug u about it and ya this time it's written by myself not with ai or some shi.

i am sorry. i love u. both of those are true at once.

— me, still yours ✦