☁️ 🌧️ 💧 ☁️ 🤍 💧

i am really so sorry

Vaishu ❤️

i'm not good at saying this out loud. so i built u somewhere quiet to hear it ~ take ur time with it. 🤍

Ennodu thanga ponne

✦ 01 · the honest part ✦

here's exactly what i did

no softer words for it. no spinning it. u deserve to hear me say it plainly first.

— the part i can't take back —

Unna na naraiya hurt panniruken vaishu.. Yosikama nariya vishayam panniten unaku.. Ellame ennodu selfishness la panniten coz ennodu life la unna lose pannavenda nu byanthu ellame panniten

These 5 months na panninathu ellame realise panni romba thappu panniruken i am really sorry sorry sorry for it

Saami mela nambika vechi enna mannichu ore oru vati chance kudupiya

no "but" no "u also" no "i didn't mean it"

i was wrong. fully. that's the whole sentence ~

✦ 02 · your side of it ✦

i think it felt like this

the things u typed out and deleted. i've been imagining them all week.

u, probably 🤍

drafts u never sent

i wasn't even asking for much. i just wanted u to hear me.

the silence hurt more than the actual fight did.

i kept checking my phone. that's the embarrassing part.

i'm not even angry anymore. i'm just tired.

i heard all of it. even the ones u never sent. 🤍

i'm not guessing to look sweet ~ i'm guessing because i finally sat down and thought about u instead of me.

✦ 03 · not just words ✦

what actually changes

tap each one to hold me to it. sorry without this part is just noise ~

Na unna msg panna sollamaten , ennachu ennachu nu kekamaten

Unna distrub eh pannamaten

Nee enna sonnalum purinchu nadanthupen

Na unakaga wait pannitu irupen

and if i slip ~ u can point at this exact page and i'll shut up and fix it.

no bringing up old fights to win a new one. that stops today.

phone down when u're talking. actually down, not face-down-but-still-checking.

i'll ask how u're doing about it a week later too, not just on the day i apologise.

0 ticked ~ take ur time, read them properly first

✦ 04 · the weather between us ✦

help me clear it ☁️

i can't move this one on my own. push the cloud ~ three times should do it.

☀️

☁️

👆 tap the cloud

it's been grey like this for days. i know i'm the reason.

✦ 05 · what i'm asking for ✦

this. this is the us i want back

i went looking through our photos last night. watch the colour come back into them ~

Ennala unna maraka mudiyala vaishu❤️🥺

I really really sorry da vaishu ma

Photo la iruka mathiri en life la yum kuda irupiya pa

Manichiko de 🫂 theriyama panniten

i'm not asking u to pretend this week didn't happen ~ i'm asking for a shot at getting us back here, slowly, properly.

✦ 06 · the long version ✦

p.s. the whole thing

since i had u all the way down here ~

Hey thanga ponne

Intha 5 months nariya enaku learn panna vechitu

Unaku evlo trauma kuduthuren nu neneche paka mudiyala.. Na thappu panniten

Ennala nan pannathu ethume matha mudiyathu

Ennala unna vitu move on pannave mudiyala vaishu

But athukaga unna msg panni illa force panni iruka vechen na its not real love

Nee happy ah jolly ah iru Take ur time Heal urself

Nee entha oru choice eduthalum na accept pannikuren, As said before unna thariva vera yarum ennodu life partner illa vaishu

Please forgive me Nee enna epo manichitiyo apo enaku msg podu Epo kovam kaammi agutho enaku call Pannu I will be always waiting for your notification and call

i am sorry. i love u. both of those are true at once. Sammi mela nambika vechu enaku ore oru chance kudutha na I really keep tht promise for sure

— me, ur pookie 🎀

This is a promise letter