☁️ 🌧️ 💧 ☁️ 🤍 💧

i am really so sorry

— yes u, Mukkuu🤍 —

i'm not good at saying this out loud. so i built u somewhere quiet to hear it ~ take ur time with it. 🤍

it gets warmer further down ↓

✦ 01 · the honest part ✦

here's exactly what i did

Before explaining anything I'm just soo sorryy My loveeee 🫶🏻💗

— the part i can't take back —

i said something i knew would hurt u, and i said it anyway because i wanted to win the argument more than i wanted u to feel okay.

I just ruined your birthday even though that was the most special day for me ,that was the worse part.

Im just soo sorryy for every thing I had ever done baby I'm just soo sorrryy I just loveee you the mosttt babyy 😭❤️

no "but" no "u also" no "i didn't mean it"

i was wrong. fully. that's the whole sentence ~

✦ 02 · your side of it ✦

i think it felt like this

the things u felt babyy i've been imagining them all the time ..

Chief justice of my 🤍

My love ❤️

I'm just sorryy for making it worse as always

I just always kept hurting you , left you alone in all this

I'm sorrryy for every part I had done I'm just soo sorryy

I loveeeee youu soo much BABYYY 🫂

I'll give youuu , ‘me’as you always wanted to be🤍

This all is not because I just say sorry everytime and you forget me easily I'm sorryyyyyyy my Love I just please stayyyy with mee

✦ 03 · not just words ✦

what actually changes

tap each one to hold me to it. sorry without this part is just noise ~

no more walking away mid-conversation. i'll say "i need a minute" out loud instead.

when u tell me something hurt, my first sentence will be "u're right", not "well actually".

no more silences. worst case i text u "i'm still upset but i'm here."

i'll bring it up first next time. u won't have to be the one who always starts the hard talk.

and if i slip ~ u can point at this exact page and i'll shut up and fix it.

no bringing up old fights to win a new one. that stops today.

phone down when u're talking. actually down, not face-down-but-still-checking.

i'll ask how u're doing about it a week later too, not just on the day i apologise.

0 ticked ~ take ur time, read them properly first

✦ 04 · the weather between us ✦

help me clear it ☁️

i can't move this one on my own. push the cloud ~ three times should do it.

☀️

☁️

👆 tap the cloud

it's been grey like this for days. i know i'm the reason.

✦ 05 · what i'm asking for ✦

this. this is the us i want back

i went looking through our photos last night. watch the colour come back into them ~

u laughing at something i said 🥹

nothing special. that's the point.

Capturing You is the best thing I'm at ✦

this one lives on my heart 🤍

i'm not asking u to pretend this week didn't happen ~ i'm asking for a shot at getting us back here, slowly, properly.

✦ 06 · the long version ✦

p.s. the whole thing

since i had u all the way down here ~

hey u 🤍,

i've been carrying this around since it happened.

not in the dramatic way ~ in the quiet way, where i keep replaying that moment when i just made it worse on a veryy special dayy I just ruined it

You just dressed up for me making it more beautiful but stupid me I just hurted you instead

i'm not just sorry because u're upset with me. i'd be sorry even if u'd forgiven me on the spot.

i'm sorry because i made the safest person in my life feel hurt because of me. and that's not a small thing to me.

u don't owe me a reply today. or tomorrow. u don't owe me a "it's okay" just to make the air normal again.

take however long u need ~ i'll be right here, being better in the meantime, not just promising it.

and when u're ready, i'd really love to hug u about it.

i am sorry. i love u. both of those are true at once.

— me, your batman✦

(this page stays up. so does the promise.)