I'm sorry,
really really sorry.
I'm sorry I fell asleep without telling you again after I promised I wouldn't. I know I've done this before, and I understand how hurtful and disrespectful it feels when I say I'll be present and then disappear into sleep. That's on me — I broke a promise and left you feeling ignored and frustrated. I want you to know I don't do it to hurt you, but that's not an excuse.
page one ✿
the letter I should've sent first
POSTAGE
♥
Dear shravni,
I've been thinking about this a lot, and I just want to say it properly — I'm really, really sorry.
Even if I wasn't trying to be careless, I should have been honest about how tired I was or set something up so I wouldn't fall asleep unexpectedly.By not telling you, I made you doubt my words and feel unimportant, and I'm really sorry for that.
To make this right, I'm committing to concrete changes: if I say I'll stay up, I will set an alarm and a visible reminder so I don't drift off; if I'm actually too tired, I will tell you immediately and ask to reschedule or pause the conversation, rather than pretending I'm fine. I'll also check in after I say I'll be awake, so you know I'm still there.
I care about how this has affected you and our trust. Tell me what would help you feel safer and heard — I want to listen and do better. I'm here to talk when you're ready.
Yours, sorry from the heart,
Manish,
found these in my memory drawer ✦
look at us, look at us
A small gallery of the version of us I'm trying to stay close to.
Look at these cuties💕
This photo always reminds me of how much closer we've become!😩
that scooty ride i still dream about🥹
That initial meeting, and the first pic of us 📷🙈
We need more pics of us😭
We should hangout moree👉🏻👈🏻🥹
look at how nice this is. i'd really love to keep adding photos. 🥺
a list of things i'm not just saying ✿
tiny promises, written in pencil
Pencil because I might mess up — but I'll keep coming back to fix the lines.
I'll listen with both ears (and zero rebuttals)
You talk first. I'll save my "but actually" for never, or at least until tomorrow. Your feelings get the floor.
I'll always be kind to you.
If I get prickly, I'll set a tiny mental timer and come find you with kinder eyes — same day, every time.
I'll choose "us" louder than I choose "right"
Being right is a tiny prize. Being us is a whole life. I know which one I want to keep.
I'll text back fast
Because you do. No more leaving you on read while I "think about my response" for two hours.
I'll bring snacks to the hard talks
Literally. A cookie, a tea, a tiny bowl of strawberries. Hard conversations deserve gentle catering.
are you still mad? 😭
go on, hit me — i deserve it 🥺
Slap, smack, punch, tap — whatever helps. Manish is bracing itself with both ears down. Let it all out, and we'll talk about forgiveness after. 🥲
hits taken: 0
go on, manish is ready 🥲
the official bunny mood ✿
how sorry am i, on a scale of 1 to 🐰
100% sorry · 100% yours · 100% trying
the big ask ✿
Forgive me?
Pretty please, with sprinkles, with sparkles, with one (1) very sorry manish on top, with a side of warm bread and a sky full of slightly-embarrassed stars?
i'll wait as long as you need. ✿
(the no button has anxiety. don't take it personally.)