I'm sorry,
really really sorry babe.
I want to apologise for what I did to you last night baby, i accidentally fell asleep I didn't evn talk to you ache se since last 2 days and I kept you waiting like that for me while I slept here and I didn't evn say you I love you and you went to bed like that. and the day before that too due to my absolute dumbfuck behaviour I made you overthink sm and made you feel scared. I am really ashamed.
page one ✿
the letter I should've sent first
POSTAGE
♥
Hey baby,
I've been thinking about this a lot, and I just want to say it properly I'm really, really sorry baby.
I was wrong. I know I made you overthink sm, and I shouldn't have. I let my mood, my overthinking get the better of me, and you didn't deserve any of it. And yesterday night I left you alone like that and I fell asleep I didn't evn tell you I love you and you had to go to sleep without that and I didn't evn call to talk to you and we aren't able to talk ache se since last 2 days. And I kept you waiting like that
When you are so so stressed babe with all the submissions and work and I acted so fucking childishly there complaining about texting me and that's was so wrong I'm so ashamed of it babe and If I could go back, I'd handle it differently hazel. I'd listen to instead of letting my overthinking to speak. I'd be patient instead of stubborn. I'd choose you over being right. Over trying to make me up.
I really do care about you, and I want to be better not just today, but every day after this too. I wanna make sure you feel more sure about us not to do dumbass things that makes you overthink. I wanna make sure you feel loved and babied and papmpered and spoiled and taken care of and you feel safe and feel home here with me
babe at your best and at your worst too I'll always be there with you there is no chance I'm leaving you or I'm going somewhere else I will always be by your side and love you unconditionally sm without asking anything in return. im never ever leaving your life as your dummy as your love and walking away babe that's my promise no matter tum jitna bhi try karlo mujhse dur hone ka ya mujhe dur dhakelne ka I won't budge at all you're all mine baby and I'm all yours.
no matter what happens baby you'll always be my no. 1 person my most precious person and I never wanna lose you. The way you love me unconditionally. you look cute when you smile hence for me to preserve that smile forever baby. the way you work for ur dreams and fight for yourself. the most purest soul I've ever met. you are soo hot and pretty and adorable and there are a million more reasons I could speak entire day why I love you sm(this website ka itna hi limit hai itna hi likh skta hu baby)
Yours, sorry from the heart,
— dummyy
found these in our folder together✦
look at us, look at us
A small gallery of the version of us I'm trying to stay close to.
dekhoo the day we kissed for the first time
Cozy days in bhopal
the sunset from tekri I still dream about
lagta hai ye photo humari shaadi me bhi use hogi
iit hazel me ho raha tha inter iit is baar
awhieee we look so cutee hazel
look at how cuteeee this is. i'd really love to keep adding photosss
a list of things i'm not just saying ✿
tiny promises, written in pencil
Pencil because I might mess up — but I'll keep coming back to fix the lines.
I'll listen and hear you out babe
You talk first. I'll save my but actually for never, or at least until tomorrow. You say first and I value your feeling over anything else
I'll come back to soft, faster
I won't let the distance make you overthink sm, I'll try to make upto to asap and would reassure you gently and calmly a million times
I'll not disappear I'll lett you know where I am and would update you with everything
ik how waiting feels like babe and I'll make sure you know what my day looks like
I'll not fall asleep leaving you
I'll let you know if I'm very sleepy but from my end I won't miss calling and talking to you and making you wait like this (my day feels empty if I don't hear your voice)
I'll not let my overthinking get the better of us
I'll deal with us then take care of you and finally I'll take care of myself babe I'm sure of us and I cannot let my overthinking sometimes make you unsure about us babe Ik how to take care of that, coz that's how we met
are you still mad? 😭
go on, hit me — i deserve it 🥺
Slap, smack, punch, tap whatever helps. Let it all out, and we'll talk about forgiveness after. 🥲
hits taken: 0
go on, dummy is ready 🥲
Dummy mood ✿
how sorry am i, on a scale of 1 to infinite
100% sorry · 100% yours · 100% trying
the big ask ✿
Forgive me?
I lovee youu sm meri jaan tumhe gussa hone ka pura haq hai par aise rutho mat na jaanu I lovee youu sm
i'll wait as long as you need. ✿
(the no button has anxiety. don't take it personally.)